Dudes with Pens

April 10, 2006

Beautiful Mistake

He was dangerous.
I should have known
but it seems I am
addicted
to danger.
Never hurt by him on my hands or face
but my heart
paid the price
He sucked me in
with lies
and threw me away
with truth
Everything I ever wanted
Everything I had ever hated
Everything I had ever loved
was him.
He's ill in the mind
manic and lost
Controlling me because everything
around him was
spinning out of control
Crystal meth made him see
darkness
hallucination
and disease
I made him see light
and what he had become.
He was sinking too fast
I couldn't catch him
but believe me... I wanted to.
Hurt by all the lies I was fed
Broken memories remain in my head
It breaks my heart that his soul is dead.
The screaming I didn't mind
it's the broken heart inside
that makes me cry.
Even though he caused more pain
than I thought I could take
he was such a beautiful mistake.

-Julisa

Deep Eyes

Look into the eyes of someone you love
and image them with tears
shining bright yet dark with shadows
with looking back on the years
Look into the eyes of someone you love
and imagine them with pain
written all over their body and face
remembering they were trapped until you came
Look into the eyes of sumone you love
and imagine them with cuts and scars so deep
they seep through the skin into their heart
realizing what they could not keep
Look into the eyes of sumone that you love
and imagine them burried and scared
fighting for life and clawing at the end
knowing that maybe no one cared
Look into the eyes of someone you love
and imagine a smile upon their face
knowing they've found truth and love
That no one can replace.

-Julisa

Dear Love.

Out of hope and love
I hope you love me.
I watch you,
and adore you,
hopefully, one day
I'll be with you-
In your arms
but also,
in your heart.
Holding your hand
but holding truth,
so we'll never be apart.
I miss good times
and love so bold.
In a world of our own
Without you, my heart is cold
summer is here
but everything seems so dark
I can see the place
where we sat
at 4 am in the park
talking- but never saying what should have been said
now look at us.
empty and bare
sad as a new boy touches my hair
he's nice and he's funny and he has a clue
and he's trying to win my heart
but he's just not you.

-Julisa

Things you would never see.

inside a kids hand, is another pretty toy
Inside a flirts mind, she's checking out another boy.
inside an abusive parents house, is a broken crying child
inside a procrastinators room, the homework slowly piles
inside a teachers head is the next hard lesson plan
inside a young boys hear, he wishes to be a man
deep inside a pessimists heart, all hope quickly fades
inside a cancer victims mind, she hopes to see the next day
Inside a celebrities hand there tons of money to spend
deep inside a loners heart, she desperatly wants a friend
deep inside everyones thoughts, they wonder who they should be
deep inside everyones lives, are things you may never see

-Julisa

Two-Faced

Every morning I meet her in the hallway
She greets me with a warm smile
"You are so lovely", she says
"You are so kind", she says
"You are so smart" she says
As if she were my best friend
As if she cared deeply for me
And I almost believe her

As I walk away from her
I almost feel the tip of a knife
Brush my back of my neck
I feel my ears burn a little
Then the rumors circle the school
And curious eyes follow me
I imagine her words of praise
Smashing into two thousands of pieces

Is there a way that
I could not care?

-Katelyn Y

Black Nail Polish

Its times like these
when just looking at my reflection in the mirror
pierces my heart more than
all of the hurtful words you said
combined
Its when I abuse myself
for believing each and every
cold-hearted lie
that made its way out of your manipulating mouth
Now the days I drag myself through
seem more surreal
then those fake smiles and conversations
that you buried and suffocated me under
When will this game end
to end my scarring pain
So that I can finally be free
from your controlling blue eyes

- anonymous

Honesty Is Never The Best Policy

Whoever said
Sticks and stones
may break my bones
But words
can never hurt
me
Obviously never experienced
heartbreak.

- anonymous

posted by dudeswithpens @ 4:59 p.m.